I can completely feel for you about being out of shape. I have been since I had my kids. It's only gotten worse over the years with developing health problems caused by The Shot. I curse that damned thing and how it threw my hormones completely out of wack, then to be told it's not for everybody. No, really!? and I hate how I look.

I've been slowly working on getting myself in shape for the past several months but I need to do more. I walk everyday, watch what I eat, but I need to join a gym or something. My mother reminding that at my age, 35, getting into shape won't be easy for me as it was years ago doesn't help me much. Love the woman but sometimes she just doesn't know how to give encouragement. I also don't have the complete dedication I did once before. Raising kids can distract a person.

I want to be in shape again, like I was back when I was modeling, or at least close to how I used to look back then. Of course this time, I'm eating right and not starving myself. I also don't want to have a bluish tinge to my skin and have my damned ribs showing. Yeah, I modeled between the ages 19-21. Can you believe I looked like I just mentioned and was told to lose ten more pounds!

I told myself once the PCA job gets approved I'm joining one of the gyms in my area.