AHAHAHAH oh crap

[wordinista]

Fifteen days till Yuletide stories are due and... I have not started yet.  Shit.  I AM NOT GOING TO DEFAULT, BECAUSE I AM NOT MADE OF QUITE THAT MUCH FAIL YET.

Also, if you have a holiday card post somewhere on your LJ, CAN YOU PLEASE LINK ME TO IT?

Additionally, if you haven't hit me up for a holiday card PLEASE DO SO HERE.

My last class is tomorrow night, which is good.  I have not yet finished my project, which is less good.

Tora may not be getting a Christmas bonus, which is bad.  (Very bad, holy shit.)

And Bronte has had three accidents in as many days (which is v. v. bad and also unpleasant).

However, I'm not sick, which is an improvement over last year. 

I'm also giving serious consideration to teaching for the college again.  I'm trying to talk myself out of it, but I kind of miss doing something that feels worthwhile, even though I did bitch a LOT about the rampant idiocy.  I... don't know.  The job caused me a lot of stress towards the end there, but that had a lot to do with other things going on at the time.  I enjoyed teaching, and it's something I'm good at.

I also feel utterly detached from just about any sort of fandom these days.  I want to finish OGAM, if only because I ... need to finish it.  I don't like the idea of leaving something that huge left unfinished.  But writing in general has been difficult.  If I write at all, I try to focus the efforts on original fic.  It's like... the OGAM-verse used to be a lot more vivid in my head, and it just... isn't anymore.  I may just try to make the next chapter the last chapter, because... it very well could be -- it'd just mean cutting a lot of extra frou-frou bits.  I don't know.  I... kind of need to make myself give a damn again. 

The same goes for BitR -- ever since Takaya ended the series, I have had zero urge to work on the story, because I hated her ending so very much.  I dunno, might just yank that one -- or figure out how to make it shorter.

So!  Going to walk Darwin, work on my project, and pick out a couple of things to read in order to get myself primed to write my Yuletide story, and ... and I am going to attempt to get into SOME SEMBLANCE OF THE HOLIDAY SPIRIT because, damn, I am no fun like this.

Comments

[hyanan.livejournal.com]

*argh* *crosses fingers for Xmas bonus*

I am sucking on the Xmas card front this year, but if you're in the Vortex area near NYE, feel free to stop by Casa Caballero! :D

[w0rdinista.livejournal.com]

...I know where going to be in Lutz sometime after Christmas and before NYE, but beyond that I HAVE NO IDEA. But your NYE shindig sounds like it's gonna be awesome.

[mscongeniality.livejournal.com]

Yeah....I haven't started my yuletide either. Sadly, I think you're probably in better shape than me.

I haven't yet done a holiday card thing, but I'm going to try to put one up today. I'll poke at yours later as well. My holiday card post is up here.

Also...meh on the fandom stuff. :(

[w0rdinista.livejournal.com]

This thing with Bronte has been pretty emotionally draining. I just... don't have the energy to care about fandom stuff, I think. I've been horribly apathetic about a lot of things, and it's just... I'm tired. I can't maintain the level of enthusiasm for fandom like I used to. And I have absolutely no patience at all for people who wank about fandom, because it's all just... it's so unimportant right now. And I know it probably sounds ridiculous that a pet has me this tied up in knots, but... them's the breaks, I think.

anonymous person who is totally anonymous

[(Anonymous)]

Speaking from work as an anonymous person who is totally anonymous, finishing a large project like OGAM will make you feel better. It is good in general to finish what you start.

Re: anonymous person who is totally anonymous

[w0rdinista.livejournal.com]

I might have an inkling as to who you aaaare, my little Anon. ♥

I know it's good to finish what you start, and I never had any doubt that I WOULD finish OGAM. It's just... at this point, I'm not sure I can muster up the creative energy to give the damn thing the ending it deserves. Maybe that's half the problem -- my expectations for myself are too high.

[everstar3.livejournal.com]

If you need me to come up, I will, you know.

[w0rdinista.livejournal.com]

Well, I imagine the holiday spirit will come along after I've started decorating. That's usually the way it works. And I might get some egg-nog or apple cider at the store this week. Doing baking always helps too.

Bronte... I'm kind of worried about her. I hope she'll be with us through the holidays, but I'm also starting to suspect she's stopped eating. She's still drinking, but... I hear no tell-tale crunchies from her bowl. So... yeah. I... have a feeling that this week or next is going to suck rocks.

anonymous person who is still totally anonymous

[(Anonymous)]

Well no one said you had to put the finished chapter up where anyone would see it. Mediaminer has a fine "hide chapter" option. That way you could have the finality of posting it and then let it sit for six months and then scrub scrub scrub!

Oh, and put on these jingling bells.

Now you are in the holiday spirit: annoyed and contagious.