And another mental health update!
Mar. 28th, 2005 09:28 amWell, I got most of the things that I needed to take care of taken care of. And, wow, that sentence looks wonky.
I still have some grading to work on, and I'd like to get a start on my Renaissance paper, which is due April 7. I'm on spring break from work this week, so things are relatively sane right now, though only by a little bit. The house is still Box City, and I suppose I should work on that today. I have class at 2:00, and I have to leave at 1:00 for it (45 minute drive), and I'm so completely NOT motivated to go. Particularly since I'm fairly certain that I'm not going to continue with this 2nd degree business. It's too tiring, and way too stressful. I can't enjoy any of the things that I LIKE to do -- I only just started working on Ch 51 in earnest. I've practically fallen completely out of touch with fandom, which annoys me a bit. The stories that I like to read have been updated so many times that I'm not sure if I'll have the time to get caught up with them.
And I may soon be undertaking a project that will be extremely rewarding if all goes well -- but extremely time consuming, even if it doesn't. A very small handful of people know what I'm talking about. I'm superstitious that way -- telling too many people makes it feel like I'm going to jinx myself. All I can say is this: all of the bad luck I've experienced over the past few months may have been advance payment for a karmic turnaround. I'll say more when I know more.
( Adventures in Cat Ownership )
Ugh. I need a good reason to actually MAKE it to class today. I really, really, REEEEAAAALLLLLY don't feel like going. Bleh. It's rainy, and grey, and... I feel lazy.
I still have some grading to work on, and I'd like to get a start on my Renaissance paper, which is due April 7. I'm on spring break from work this week, so things are relatively sane right now, though only by a little bit. The house is still Box City, and I suppose I should work on that today. I have class at 2:00, and I have to leave at 1:00 for it (45 minute drive), and I'm so completely NOT motivated to go. Particularly since I'm fairly certain that I'm not going to continue with this 2nd degree business. It's too tiring, and way too stressful. I can't enjoy any of the things that I LIKE to do -- I only just started working on Ch 51 in earnest. I've practically fallen completely out of touch with fandom, which annoys me a bit. The stories that I like to read have been updated so many times that I'm not sure if I'll have the time to get caught up with them.
And I may soon be undertaking a project that will be extremely rewarding if all goes well -- but extremely time consuming, even if it doesn't. A very small handful of people know what I'm talking about. I'm superstitious that way -- telling too many people makes it feel like I'm going to jinx myself. All I can say is this: all of the bad luck I've experienced over the past few months may have been advance payment for a karmic turnaround. I'll say more when I know more.
( Adventures in Cat Ownership )
Ugh. I need a good reason to actually MAKE it to class today. I really, really, REEEEAAAALLLLLY don't feel like going. Bleh. It's rainy, and grey, and... I feel lazy.